Vogue opens up on final moments with dad and says she ‘could have said more’

VOGUE Williams has admitted she wishes she “could have said more to” her late dad before his death.

The Dublin native’s dad Freddie passed away in 2010 when she was just 24-years-old, after he had a stroke following an operation to remove an aneurysm..

Vogue spoke about her beloved dad on Elizabeth Day’s podcast How To Fail.

The model was asked if there was anything she felt was left unsaid before her father’s passing and she replied: “I don’t know what else I could have said to him at that age because he died when I was in my 20’s.

“I don’t think that you are mature enough to really think, right, ‘I need to sit down and have a really deep conversation with someone’.

“Do I wish I could have said more to him? I probably do, but when someone is going in for a serious operation you don’t say stuff like, ‘Just so you know I really love you’, because then they are like, ‘Why are you saying this to me?'”

The mum-of-three added: “I don’t think you should do that when someone is unwell, I think it would make them nervous. No one wants to think they are going to die.

“You don’t want to scare somebody, so that’s why you say, ‘I’ll see you when you get out’.”

She added: “He knew I loved him I spent a lot of time with him, we were really close particularly in our later life, for me he was a great dad, I wouldn’t say he was a great husband to my mom.”

Vogue went on to explain that due to her dad’s untimely passing, she always makes a conscious effort with her mum to say, “I love you, see you later”.

While on the podcast, Elizabeth asked Vogue about conversations she felt she couldn’t have with her family.

The Howth native said: “I have resigned myself to the fact there will always be things kind of unsaid in my family.

“There are things that probably could do with a conversation, but with that said, my family are also my best friends.”

Vogue revealed that in the past she blamed her self for her dad’s death saying she felt guilt around his passing for years because she pushed him to have the operation.

Freddie had an aneurysm in his stomach and while the family had to make a decision around whether or not he’d get the op, he’d probably “have rathered” to wait it out.

SAD LOSS

The 38-year-old said: “He was 68, he was young, but he was always unwell because he smoked a lot.

“There was a high chance it would just burst on its own and he would die, or they could try and do an operation.”

Mum-of-three Vogue said his death “happened so quickly” after the decision was made for him to have the operation.

But she added: “We were just like, ‘listen, there’s a chance here you’re going to be totally fine, you won’t have to worry, it’ll be gone’.

“He woke up from the operation, but when he came to and when I was talking to him, I was just thinking, he’s saying weird stuff to me that he would never say.

“And then it turned out that he had had a stroke on his brain.”

Vogue then sadly explained how her dad was then put into a coma and added: “He never came out of it.”

Vogue said his death happened “so quickly” and she found it tough to deal with the guilt afterwards.